Fruitful

Fruitful

I want to nail you to the wall

I want to make you pay

I want your softness and attentions

I punish myself when I want you

I want you to feel the sting and stop

I contort and cut out

I twist and I split

I bind myself until there's only pain

I perish in pursuit of the pleasure

I starve on full rations

I eat the poisoned sweets

I loathe my need for nourishment

I bought the lies

I took the hook

I had no recourse

I was marvelously resilient

I don't want you anymore

I spit you out

I cut down your groves

I burn your branches

I salt your earth

I hold my lacerations

I piece together the puzzle

I sift through the rubble

I stitch myself

I pull all your weeds

I am the gardener here now

I reject your farce

I don't need your illusions

I am powerful now

I am no longer the child

I am Warrior

I am Heroine

I am Justice

I am Mercy

I am Vulnerability

I am Joy

I am Connected

I am Changed

I am Humble

I am Meek

I am Fragile

I am Steel

I am Wise

I am Nourished

I am Loved

I am Truth

I am Grief

I am Real

You are Fake

You are Lies

You are Poison

You are Hate

You are Abuse

You are Weak

You are Trapped

You are Fragment

You are Misery

You are Alone

You are Discarded

You are Cut off

You are my past

But you are not my future

You are Compost

I am Coming Up Roses

Justice is seen in my blossoms

Healing is smelled in my perfume

Fruit comes from hard pruning

And you are gone

Only Fruits I Grew are Left

I am fruitful